The Unf*ck Your Fitness Podcast

155. Why You Deserve to Look and Feel Like the ‘Baddest’ Version of Yourself

• Kristy Castillo

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I recently saw this quote on social media: “I deserve to know what the baddest version of me looks like”. I know it’s not super deep, but for some reason, it REALLY resonated with me!



For so many of us as women (and especially as moms), we’re used to doing and doing for everyone else. We tend to put ourselves last, but you know what? We deserve to feel freaking GOOD about ourselves, too!



I want you to picture yourself showing up confident, empowered, and ready to kick ASS on your fitness journey. Take some time and visualize what you feel like, look like, what you listen to, who you surround yourself with, what you think, and more. THIS is what the ‘baddest’ (aka best) version of yourself looks like!



I’ve personally been on my own healing journey the last few years. I’ve experienced my own ‘shit’, and I bet you can relate. Through it all, I’ve learned that I DO deserve to put the time and effort into myself. 


I deserve to show up and take up space in the gym, and my life. You do TOO!



It’s time to embrace the ‘baddest’ version of yourself, in all aspects of your life. You’ve got what it takes, so let’s make it happen!!



In this episode, we cover:

  • Why YOU deserve to know what the ‘baddest’ version of you feels like
  • What it looks like to show up confidently & embody the ‘bad’ version of yourself
  • Navigating your healing & self-discovery journey


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Welcome to the Un-Fuck-Your-Fitness Podcast. I am your host, christy Castillo, and I'm here to give you real talk and cut the BS so you can actually enjoy building a body you love. I'm a personal trainer obsessed with giving you simple, action steps to take you from feeling stuck to feeling sexy. Let's go. Hey guys, what's up? Welcome to this Friday episode of the Unfuck your Fitness podcast. I have a kind of fun, short, sweet, spicy episode for you today. A little topic.

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I saw this quote on. It had to have been Instagram. That's where I spend all of my time scrolling. Basically, I don't think there's any other app that I scroll on other than Instagram, so it had to have been there. I should have taken a picture of it so I could, like, accredit the person who came up with it, but honestly, it's not that deep, so I feel, so I feel fine about it. I'll create it. You guys can share it on Instagram.

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But the quote is this I deserve to know what the baddest version of me looks like. I know it's not that deep, but for some reason it really hit me. I loved it. I didn't like. I said I didn't screenshot it. I put it in the notes section of my phone, which is a disaster. Anyone else, let me know if your notes section of your phone is a disaster. I have so many workouts and podcast ideas and quotes from clients or just like brainstorms. I'll have a client call and something will just come into my head that I want to podcast about and so I put in my notes there's groceries, there's like it's just, it's quite the array of shit, honestly, in my notes section. But I popped this in there in the podcast section because I wanted to talk about it and I wanted to talk about it on a day where I was feeling like I just wanted to chat with you. So that's what I want to do. So basically, yes, I deserve to know what the baddest version of me feels like. You deserve to know what the baddest version of you feels like. I think that's so cool, like I wish someone would have said that to me sooner. Like Christy, you deserve to know.

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I think a lot of times and let me just speak to the mamas for a minute A lot of times we spend so much of our time and our thoughts on other people. Of course, of course we do. We're moms. That's like what we've kind of. That's what we do. Obviously, that's. Our job as a mom is to take care of other human beings, so it makes sense that that's what we're doing. But also, I wasn't directly taught to not take care of myself or put myself last, but that's what I felt like I needed to do. It's like you're a mom now. So there goes your body and there goes your social life and there goes your time.

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People say that, shit, right, I remember being pregnant and it was like well, kiss that little body. Goodbye, there goes your abs. You're never going to look like that again. You're you know you'll never. You're never going to sleep a full night again. You're never going to be able to go out on a date night. It's like there goes your everything that I like, was or did. Basically, I felt like people were like well, there goes that. So, anyway, that's an entirely different topic.

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But I now have so many different clients and I've seen women go through so many things, even myself included, that I'm like I deserve to know what the baddest version of me looks like and, more than that, what she feels like and what she likes to do, and I deserve to know those things about myself. So I think when I read that it was just like nobody had ever said to me exactly in that way, and I take in information that's in little bites really well when someone says it, and it's like if it's a cool quote or it's just something that I can digest really, really quickly and it's just straight to the point. Just like that. You deserve to know what the baddest version of you looks like. Straight to the point. Just like that. You deserve to know what the baddest version of you looks like. You deserve to take time for yourself. You deserve to put in the work. If we were to take it out of a different context, in health and fitness, it's like we have our why, why we go to the gym and why we should make better choices and, yes, all of those things are great Workout because you love your body, not because you hate it. All of these quotes that are kind of pinging off in my brain right now. They all have a great place and they have a great. They serve a really, really good purpose.

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But at the end of the day, if we are to look at it like, I deserve to eat healthier because the baddest version of myself needs that. I deserve to wake up earlier and spend time on myself because the baddest version of myself needs that. I deserve to wake up earlier and spend time on myself because the baddest version of myself needs that. I deserve to work really hard in the gym and to go off a couple episodes ago. I deserve to lift heavy. I deserve to grow muscle. I deserve to be hot. I deserve to be sexy. I deserve to be a badass. I deserve to fuel my body. I deserve to think a badass. I deserve to fuel my body. I deserve to think highly of myself. I deserve to put in the time to set this foundation and really soak up knowledge about my body, about health, about fitness, about the gym. I deserve to do all of these things right. I think when we look at it in those terms, it makes a lot more sense, because then it's not so much us. Okay, let me just say it like it is right.

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Sometimes I hear things that are so cheesy and so positive. It's like toxic positivity. At the end of the day, I like straightforward. Anybody who knows me knows that I like it straightforward. Tell me like it is. Don't beat around the bush, say it harsh, say it abrupt. Cut me off and tell me like it is. I like that kind of thing.

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My alarm goes off in the morning, right, let's say for me, this is me personally. If you're not this type of person, then I guess then I am not talking to you right now. I'll talk to you on a different episode. Because I have, like I have these two sides of myself. Maybe it's because I'm a Gemini and I literally have two sides to myself, but anyway, I do have a side. That's like I want to do this for my health and I want to do this for my children and I want to do this for my family. I want to be the best version of myself so that I can be a better mom. I want to be the best version of myself so that I can be a better wife, so that I can be a better daughter, so that I can live longer, so that I can get up off the floor, you know, or get on the floor, I guess, and play with my grandkids someday, and then get up off the floor, and there are a shit ton of reasons why people get into shape.

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But at the end of the day, when this all comes together, if I'm laying in bed in the morning and my alarm goes off and I'm like I do not wanna get up right now. If someone were to say to me, christy, get up Someday you're want to play with your grandkids and get on the floor and play horsey, or they're going to want to jump on your back like, get up and, you know, go work out. I don't know if that's going to get me out of bed, but if someone were to say to me hey, you deserve to know what the baddest version of you looks like. You deserve to get up, slam some weights around, dress in your cute little outfits, take a freaking cute picture picture, post it on social media. It's part of my job, but I'm talking to you Like you deserve to know what the baddest version of you looks like and feels like and does how she operates.

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You deserve to have, if we're just talking, physical appearance here, which deserving to have a bad body, deserving to know what the baddest version of you looks like. That's physical, so let's just stick with that. You deserve to know what that looks like. You deserve to be smoking hot and strong and lean and fit. You deserve to look like a freaking sexy mama in these dresses. You deserve to feel good about yourself, and not just healthy, and I'm a good mom and I'm teaching my kids how to eat healthy. I love that shit. I love that shit and that's really, really important.

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But there's also this other, more abrupt side to it, which I just eat up. That's like you also just deserve to look freaking good and to put on clothes that fit you and think, god damn, my ass looks good. And to flex in a tank top and be like man. My arms look so good. I worked so hard for this right.

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You deserve to know what the baddest version of you looks like. Say it with me. I deserve to know what the baddest version of me looks like you do, because you freaking do, okay. So let's show up with that energy this weekend, carry it throughout next week. If you want, carry it throughout the following week. If you want, carry it with you forever. I kind of love it. I might put it on a shirt, I might put it on social media. I really just love it. I might put it on like a on a shirt, I might put it on social media, like I really just love it. I think it just embodies this woman, like this attitude, like it's really empowering. It really embodies something that I love, and if it doesn't for you, that's totally fine. Like I said, but when I read this, you know sometimes you just read something and you're like, oh my God, yeah, I do deserve to know what the baddest version of me looks like. I deserve to show up as the baddest version of myself, why I don't need to go through life wondering, oh my gosh, like I could have had a better body, I could have been hotter, I could have right, like, yeah, you could have. And if you don't know how to get that bad version of yourself the baddest body, if you don't know how to get it, let me know.

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Please listen to these podcasts. Please join my Facebook group. All the links to follow me are in the show notes. Please come follow me, because we gotta eat and we gotta lift heavy and while we're doing that, we gotta listen to some sweet jams in the gym and we gotta show up with confidence. And we've gotta show up with confidence and we've got to show up as her right. We've got to be like what is this bad version of yourself? What is the baddest version of yourself?

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I know a lot of people that, and this might be a little cheesy, but it does help me sometimes to show up as the baddest version of myself, to show up as the baddest version of yourself, yes, okay, so you deserve to know what the baddest version of yourself looks like. If you say that to yourself, I deserve this. What does that look like? Maybe we need to go ahead and build her out, right? Maybe we need to visualize.

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What does she look like? What does she wear in the gym? What does she listen to in the gym? I listen to some bad bitches in the gym when I'm working out and it helps me to work out and embody that spirit. Right, I'm dancing, I'm feeling great, I'm like getting into it, right? So picture that like. I want to listen to cool music while I'm working out, because I want that attitude to embody that while I'm working out. What does this version of me wear? What does she look like? What does she talk like? What does she think like? What does she eat? Who are her friends? You know? What books does she read? What does her house look like? What does her time management look like? It's a lot, I understand, but we can build that out because if you're like, do I deserve that?

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If you're still kind of in that mindset of like I don't know really how to embody that. I don't really understand that. That's fine. And also maybe you're just at that stage of your cycle where you're in that more emotional stage. So maybe come back, like next week or the following month, when you're in your spicy era of the month. Ladies, but seriously, men too, you deserve to know what the baddest version of you looks like. You deserve to spend time on yourself. You deserve to get ripped and shredded, you deserve to eat well. You deserve all of that. We all do. It's just a matter of like embodying that. So I just think that's a really cool way to move into this weekend and embody that kind of person, that baddest version of yourself, and really take some time to just kind of think about it and figure out. You know this year is all about focus Talked about that at the beginning of the year, obviously in my New Year's resolution style and kind of what is your focus for this year?

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I think for me. When I read that I thought, yes, it's been a while since I have felt like the baddest version of myself. You know, I've spent the last few years kind of going through some shit got knocked down a little bit and I healed. And you know therapy and like I'm still healing and I'm still processing things and like working on myself and like I have thoughts of myself and I have to kind of kick them to the curb and say, nope, that doesn't serve me anymore, or that person doesn't serve me anymore, or you know, kind of figuring that stuff out. So it's okay to be in this in a stage two.

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I know a lot of you. I've actually gotten quite a few messages lately from women either starting to work with me or, you know, just through my contact me page and like telling me a little bit about themselves, like, and even new ladies joining Fit Club, saying that like I went through some stuff, I went through some trauma, I had to heal and I'm working on myself and I don't know who I am and I don't know what I believe and I don't know what. You know what's next for me and what the rules are. Because when you go through things and you change and you heal and you maneuver through life as kind of a different person, because trauma, things happening to you, no matter what it is, if it affects you in a deep enough way, you do change essentially so you are now a new person walking through this life in a way that you've never walked through it before. So if you're in that stage where you're kind of confused and you're like I'm kind of in this soft, trying to figure life out, you know timeframe, that's completely fine but also know that it's okay to not know exactly who you are and where you're going, and you know why things happen and like and all that kind of stuff. It's okay to not be okay, it's okay to not know all the answers. I don't believe that we ever will, obviously, but you can still embody this.

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You deserve to know what the baddest version of you looks like, feels like, is right. You still deserve that and I think I struggle with that. A lot is like. Deserve is a weird word for me to kind of feel. It's like I don't know what I deserve. I don't. I don't really. That's kind of a weird thing to like. If you really want to get deep about it, I it is kind of a weird thing Like what do any of us deserve really? But when you kind of take the depth out of it, we really do deserve that. Like in my soul, at the core of my being.

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I believe we do deserve to know what the baddest version of us looks like, feels like. We get one time, we get one lifetime on this earth and you do deserve to put time into yourself, to put effort into yourself and to know what that baddest version of you looks like. To bring it back to physical, you do deserve that. So when you show up in the gym and you show up this weekend, if you're going out with friends and you're like, nope, I'm not going to have all that nasty food this time, I'm just going to stick with the salad, I'm going to stay within my macros you deserve that. You deserve that. Your body deserves that.

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When you go to the gym and ladies, gents, whatever, if you're scared of kind of lifting heavy, if you're scared of showing up and going to the gym, you deserve to be there. You deserve to show up. You deserve to take up space there. You got this right. We have to kind of embody that attitude, embody that spirit and if you can't embody it for yourself yet, embody it from me. Take me along with you in your ears, listen to this episode or just keep saying I deserve to know what the baddest version of me looks like Just keep saying that, because I've said it to myself over the last few days and I'm like man, it feels so good to just say that. So that's all I got for you today.

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Happy Friday. I hope you have a wonderful weekend. Definitely embody some of this energy that I am feeling today, I think I. I hope I continue to feel it throughout the weekend as well, and I'll talk to you guys on the next episode. Bye. Thanks for listening to today's show. Go ahead and leave a rating and a review and, of course, follow the podcast so you don't miss out on any future episodes. And I would love it so much if you came to connect with me over on Instagram at Christy Castillo Fit. I will see you next time. Bye.